[Random Chatter] #2: Decisions?

[Random Chatter] #1: Negativity

I just don't get it. I worked so hard for everyone, showered them with so much love, wished the best for them, but they don't even care a little about me. This feels so wrong, but frankly, I'm so pissed off. Isn't that rude, disregarding each thoughtfulness of mine? I wanted them to be happy, but they don't care if I'm sad or glad. I wished them blissfulness, but they don't even want to waste their time thinking of me. Isn't that just... evil? I won't ever claim myself as an angel-hearted person, I'm not. But compared to them, aren't I? 

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In life, people make choices. I choose them. But they don't choose me. It's miserable, how our path didn't cross each other. We just met, said hello, became friends, and then forget each other anytime soon. I once believe in "best friend forever" thingies, but then I realized that it's something impossible. Even if my path crossed theirs a few times, but since we can't stay at a same place forever, as we go forward, we'll leave 'that' path and make a new one. Pathetic, indeed. Most of myself think that the concept about "friends" works the same as "partner" does. Help each other, cares for each other, love each other, but no matter what, that kind of relationship will not be that much as we expect it would be. 

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Growing up ruins everything. At least, that's what I can conclude for now: you graduated high school, and automatically become a jobless person. You just wake up, eat, watch TV, eat, take a bath, do some things online, then go to sleep, and repeat them all over again. Then you feel like needing to go get a job, but then you feel like don't want to let go of your freedom. But you know that you can't be like that forever, it's such a pain in the ass to burden your parents (both financially and mentally) for the rest of your life. You'll start looking for a job because you need it, not because you want it. 

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Hi guys, so, this [Random Chatter] article is... Well, kind of article that contains my random rattlings? Every person has their own randomness, and probably this article is one of mine. I hope this kind of post won't bother you. It's just my way to spew my thoughts :) 

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